Sunday, August 7, 2011

Week Number..... wait... what the H$#@ happened??

hmmm... seems I started the year making a weekly post, only to disappear and not right much at all!
well, things got rough and crazy with my life. life went fast, work picked up, and any goals I had set for myself went RIGHT out the window!!

I finally decided to schedule a doctors appointment for myself. I went to my appointment on July 21st. I picked a brand new doctor, wanted a brand new start, and wanted to make all the right choices, starting now. I had wanted to have my appointment earlier in the year, so as not to derail myself early on, but boy do I NOT like doctors.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Who is YOUR dad? (this is a LONG one!)

After the events of this weekend, I felt I needed to get some things off my chest and let out the emotions i've been bottling up for 10 years.

As many of you know, I didn't know my real dad until I was 7 years old, and haven't spoken to him since I was 17. My step-dad, although he's not perfect, has been far more of a dad to me than the man that created me.

My mother was a great mom. she made a lot of sacrifices to make sure I was raised right and taken care of. We didn't have nice cars, houses, or money, but I always had what I needed and the unconditional love of a mother who tried her hardest to raise me on her own for quite some time.

My real dad cheated on my mom and left her for a younger woman when I was still a baby, less than a year old. He moved out of the state with this woman and they were (and still are) married. My mom never mentioned him and let me call my brothers dad - my dad. I knew he wasnt, but I called him dad anyways. I know she never meant to deceive me, she was just trying to protect me.